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What Lies Within Masks & Shadows

What Lies Within Masks & Shadows

by Nicolle May 2024 532 pages
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Plot Summary

Shadows and Storms

A world ruled by darkness

In the city of Telldaira, Alora, a faeling marked by forbidden magic, survives in the shadows of a society that despises her kind. The city is a place of rot and danger, where the unwanted are left to fend for themselves. Alora, betrothed to the cruel Lord Kaine, finds solace only in the darkness and the storms that mirror her inner turmoil. Her life is a constant struggle between hiding her true self and enduring the violence of her fiancé. The threat of the High King's army looms, and rumors of the Savage Prince—Elysian's gray-haired demon—haunt the city. Alora's only hope is escape, but freedom comes at a price, and the storm outside is nothing compared to the one within.

The Price of Freedom

Desperation leads to dangerous deals

Alora risks everything in the forbidden markets, striking a bargain with a serpent-like faerie for the coins she needs to run. The deal is sealed in blood, binding her to a future debt. The market is a place of shadows and secrets, where survival means outwitting both monsters and men. Alora's skills as a thief and her sharp tongue serve her well, but every step is fraught with peril. The coins in her hand represent hope, but also the weight of new chains. As she returns to Kaine's manor, the reality of her captivity and the cost of her choices settle in. Freedom is close, but so is the darkness that hunts her.

Chains Behind Closed Doors

Abuse and survival behind luxury

The manor is a gilded cage, where Alora endures Kaine's brutality in silence. The world sees her as a lady, but behind closed doors, she is property—beaten, humiliated, and forced to submit. Kaine's violence is both physical and psychological, leaving scars that magic cannot heal. Alora's only comfort is the darkness, which feels safer than any promise of love. She dreams of escape, but the chains of fear and shame are hard to break. Each day is a battle to survive, to hide her pain, and to keep the spark of hope alive. The cost of freedom is steep, and Alora wonders if she will ever be truly free.

The Savage Prince's Mask

A legend steps from the shadows

As the High King's army descends on Telldaira, chaos erupts. Alora witnesses the arrival of the Savage Prince, Garrik, whose reputation for cruelty is matched only by the darkness in his eyes. He is both monster and savior, a force of nature who kills without mercy but spares her life. Garrik's presence is magnetic and terrifying, drawing Alora into a world of power and secrets. The city burns, and Alora is forced to flee, her fate now entwined with the prince she was taught to fear. The mask Garrik wears hides a tormented soul, and Alora senses that beneath the brutality lies something more.

Fire in the Blood

Magic awakens through pain

Alora's forbidden fire magic erupts in moments of trauma, both a weapon and a curse. Her powers are tied to her emotions—anger, fear, and grief fuel the flames. Training in secret with her friend Rowlen, she learns to wield her gifts, but the threat of discovery is ever-present. The mark on her arm is a death sentence, and Kaine's control tightens as he suspects her secrets. The fire within is both her salvation and her undoing, burning away the lies but leaving her exposed. In the forest, Alora's magic becomes a lifeline, but it also draws the attention of those who would use or destroy her.

The Market's Bargain

A deal with the devil

The serpent faerie's bargain haunts Alora, binding her to a future she cannot predict. The knife she acquires is more than a weapon—it is a symbol of the choices she must make. The market's shadows follow her, and the debt she owes is a constant threat. Alora's skills as a thief and negotiator are tested as she navigates a world where trust is scarce and betrayal is common. The bargains she makes are for survival, but each one comes with a cost. The knife becomes both a tool and a reminder that freedom is never free.

Bruises and Betrayals

Trust shattered by violence

Kaine's abuse escalates, leaving Alora with fresh wounds and deeper scars. The cycle of violence is relentless, and the apologies are as empty as the promises of change. Alora's attempts to fight back are met with greater cruelty, and the isolation grows. The betrayal is not just physical but emotional—every kindness is a weapon, every gift a chain. The servants turn a blind eye, and the world outside is indifferent. Alora's only allies are the shadows and her own resilience. The betrayals cut deep, but they also harden her resolve to escape.

The Voice in the Dark

A connection beyond words

In the darkness, Alora hears a voice—a presence that comforts and guides her. It is both her own inner strength and something other, a magic that listens and protects. The voice becomes a lifeline, helping her survive the worst of Kaine's violence and the terror of the High King's army. When Garrik enters her life, the voice takes on new meaning, blurring the line between enemy and ally. The connection between Alora and Garrik is forged in pain and fire, a bond that defies explanation. In the shadows, they find understanding, and in each other, the possibility of healing.

Training Among Dragons

Forging strength through pain

Alora is taken to Garrik's camp, where she is both prisoner and recruit. The Dragons are a legion of outcasts and Mystics, each with their own scars. Training is brutal, designed to break and rebuild. Alora learns to fight with sword and magic, her skills honed by Thalon, Jade, and the enigmatic Garrik. The camp is a place of found family and hard-won trust, but also of secrets and danger. Alora's fire magic is both feared and revered, and she must prove herself to those who doubt her. Through pain and perseverance, she begins to reclaim her power and her sense of self.

The Arena's Inferno

Trauma ignites uncontrollable power

In the arena, Alora's magic explodes in a storm of white flames, triggered by Jade's taunts and the weight of her past. The inferno is both a spectacle and a warning—her power is immense, but so is her pain. Garrik intervenes, risking his own safety to pull her back from the brink. The aftermath is a reckoning, as Alora confronts the consequences of her actions and the depth of her trauma. The arena becomes a crucible, forging new bonds and exposing old wounds. Through fire, Alora and Garrik begin to understand each other's darkness.

The High King's Summons

Duty and sacrifice collide

Garrik is summoned by the High King, forced to endure torture and humiliation to protect his legion. The cost of defiance is high, and the scars run deep. Alora and the Dragons are left to fend for themselves, their trust in Garrik tested by his absence. The threat of betrayal looms, and the line between friend and foe blurs. Garrik's return is both a relief and a reminder of the burdens he carries. The summons is a crucible, burning away illusions and revealing the true cost of loyalty and love.

Nightmares and Confessions

Haunted by the past, seeking solace

Nightmares plague both Alora and Garrik, their traumas echoing in the darkness. In moments of vulnerability, they confess their fears and regrets, finding comfort in each other's arms. The bond between them deepens, forged in shared pain and the promise of one more day. The confessions are raw and unfiltered, exposing wounds that have never healed. Through touch and words, they begin to mend, but the shadows of the past are never far behind. Healing is slow, and the journey is far from over.

The Dawnspace Reckoning

Confronting inner demons

Garrik introduces Alora to the Dawnspace, a realm of shadows where memories can be faced and destroyed. Together, they confront the ghosts that haunt them—Kaine for Alora, and the monstrous figures of Garrik's past. The process is brutal, forcing them to relive their worst moments and to fight for their freedom. In the Dawnspace, they learn that healing is not about forgetting, but about reclaiming power over their own stories. The reckoning is both cathartic and terrifying, but it is a necessary step toward liberation.

The Meadow of Light

Finding beauty after devastation

In a field of luminous flowers, Garrik shares memories of his mother and the pain of loss. The meadow is a place of peace and remembrance, a stark contrast to the violence and darkness that define their lives. Here, Alora and Garrik find a moment of respite, allowing themselves to hope for a future beyond pain. The beauty of the meadow is a reminder that life can flourish after fire, and that even the most broken souls can find light. It is a promise of renewal, fragile but real.

The Monster Within

Battling the darkness inside

Both Alora and Garrik are forced to confront the monsters within themselves. For Alora, it is the lingering voice of Kaine, the shame and fear that refuse to die. For Garrik, it is the legacy of violence and the scars left by the High King and his own actions. Together, they learn that the path to healing is not linear, and that forgiveness—of self and others—is a daily struggle. The monster within is never truly vanquished, but it can be tamed, and its power reclaimed for good.

One More Day

Choosing hope over despair

The mantra of "one more day" becomes a lifeline for Alora and Garrik. Each day is a victory, a choice to keep fighting despite the weight of the past. The promise is simple but profound: to survive, to heal, and to hope for a better tomorrow. Through small acts of kindness and moments of connection, they build a new foundation. The journey is far from over, but together, they find the strength to continue. One more day is enough.

The Debt of Mercy

A deal with destiny

Garrik faces Kerimkhar, the ancient being of mercy turned cruel, to save the soul of a dying woman and fulfill a promise. The debt is paid in suffering and sacrifice, testing Garrik's resolve and the limits of his power. Alora is forced to wait, trusting that Garrik will return. The encounter is a reminder that mercy and cruelty are two sides of the same coin, and that every act of kindness carries a cost. The debt is settled, but the scars remain.

Letting Go of Ghosts

Reclaiming agency and self-worth

In the aftermath of their trials, Alora and Garrik learn to let go of the ghosts that haunt them. Through confrontation, confession, and compassion, they reclaim their agency and sense of self-worth. The journey is ongoing, but the chains of the past are loosened. Together, they face the future—not as victims, but as survivors and warriors. The story ends with the promise of new beginnings, forged in the fires of trauma and the light of hope.

Characters

Alora

Survivor marked by fire

Alora is the heart of the story—a faeling born with forbidden fire magic, marked as a Mystic in a world that hunts her kind. Her life is defined by trauma: orphaned, abused by her fiancé Kaine, and forced to hide her true self. Alora's journey is one of survival, resilience, and the slow reclamation of agency. She is fiercely intelligent, resourceful, and stubborn, with a sharp tongue and a deep well of empathy. Her relationship with Garrik is fraught with tension, attraction, and mutual healing. Alora's psychological arc is a testament to the complexities of trauma recovery—her power is both a gift and a curse, and her greatest battles are fought within. Through pain, she learns to trust, to love, and to let go of the ghosts that haunt her.

Garrik

Tormented prince, reluctant savior

Garrik, the Savage Prince, is a study in contrasts: feared as a monster, yet driven by a deep sense of responsibility and guilt. Scarred by a brutal past at the hands of his father, the High King, and the monstrous "she" who tormented him, Garrik wears his trauma as both armor and wound. He is a master of shadows and mind magic, commanding the Dragons with ruthless efficiency but hiding a capacity for tenderness and vulnerability. His relationship with Alora is transformative—she sees beyond his mask, and together they confront the darkness within. Garrik's psychological journey is one of self-forgiveness, learning to accept love, and choosing hope over despair. He is both the monster and the man, and his redemption is hard-won.

Kaine

Abuser, manipulator, and ghost

Kaine is the embodiment of Alora's trauma—a charming, sadistic lord who uses violence, control, and psychological manipulation to keep her captive. He is both a real and symbolic antagonist, representing the insidious nature of abuse and the difficulty of escaping its grasp. Even after Alora flees, Kaine's voice lingers in her mind, undermining her confidence and fueling her shame. His presence is a constant threat, and his eventual defeat in the Dawnspace is a pivotal moment in Alora's healing. Kaine's character is a chilling exploration of power, control, and the long shadow of trauma.

Jade

Fierce protector, scarred by fire

Jade is a member of Garrik's Shadow Order and the leader of an all-female battalion. Her past is marked by betrayal and brutality—sold by her father, forced to fight in the pits, and tortured with fire. Jade's fear of flames and her initial hostility toward Alora mask a deep loyalty and capacity for growth. Through shared pain and hard-won trust, Jade becomes a friend and ally, her journey mirroring Alora's in many ways. Jade's psychological complexity is rooted in her trauma, but her strength and resilience shine through.

Thalon

Guardian burdened by loss

Thalon is Garrik's closest friend and the camp's swords-master, a Guardian marked by sacred duty and personal tragedy. He lost his wife and child to Garrik's violence during the Blood Years, a wound that shapes his every action. Thalon is a stabilizing force, offering wisdom, protection, and tough love. His relationship with Garrik is one of brotherhood, forgiveness, and shared pain. Thalon's arc is about learning to live with loss, to forgive, and to find purpose in protecting others.

Aiden

Pirate-hearted, loyal friend

Aiden is the camp's half-human, half-High Fae captain—a charming, irreverent, and endlessly resourceful survivor. Shipwrecked in Zyllyryon, he becomes a vital member of the Dragons, using humor and bravado to mask his own wounds. Aiden's friendship with Jade and Alora is marked by banter, loyalty, and a willingness to risk everything for those he loves. His near-death and recovery highlight the fragility and strength of found family.

Eldacar

Gentle scholar, keeper of knowledge

Eldacar is the camp's librarian and magical expert, a High Fae whose wisdom and kindness provide a safe haven for Alora and others. He is shy, bookish, and deeply empathetic, offering guidance and support in moments of crisis. Eldacar's role is to help others understand and control their magic, and his tent is a sanctuary of learning and healing. His psychological depth lies in his quiet strength and unwavering belief in the power of knowledge and compassion.

The High King (Magnelis)

Tyrant, architect of suffering

Magnelis is the unseen hand behind much of the story's pain—a ruthless ruler who hunts Mystics, tortures his own son, and enforces obedience through fear. He is a symbol of absolute power corrupted, a force that shapes the destinies of all the characters. Magnelis's cruelty is both personal and systemic, and his presence looms over every act of rebellion and every moment of hope. He is the ultimate antagonist, the embodiment of the world's darkness.

Kerimkhar

Twisted mercy, ancient debt

Kerimkhar is an immortal being once known for mercy, now corrupted by cruelty and the weight of broken bargains. He rules the crypts and the swamp, demanding suffering as payment for his deals. Kerimkhar's role is both literal and symbolic—a reminder that every act of mercy carries a cost, and that the past cannot be escaped without sacrifice. His interactions with Garrik test the limits of endurance and the meaning of redemption.

Rowlen

Healer, anchor to the past

Rowlen is Alora's childhood friend and first source of kindness after her parents' death. Gifted with healing magic, he represents the possibility of a different life—one of safety, love, and hope. Rowlen's presence is a touchstone for Alora, a reminder of who she was and who she might become. His letters and memories provide comfort, but also highlight the distance between the life Alora has and the one she dreams of.

Plot Devices

Trauma as both obstacle and catalyst

Healing and pain drive the narrative

The story's structure is built around the cycles of trauma, abuse, and recovery. Flashbacks, nightmares, and intrusive thoughts are used to immerse the reader in the psychological reality of the characters. The narrative frequently shifts between present action and memory, blurring the line between past and present. The motif of "one more day" serves as both foreshadowing and a mantra for survival. The use of the Dawnspace as a literal and metaphorical battleground for confronting inner demons is a powerful device, allowing characters to face and destroy the ghosts that haunt them. The interplay of fire and shadow magic symbolizes the duality of pain and healing, destruction and renewal.

Found family and chosen bonds

Relationships as salvation and struggle

The camp of Dragons is a microcosm of found family, where outcasts and survivors forge bonds through shared suffering and mutual support. The narrative uses training, banter, and moments of vulnerability to build trust and intimacy. The slow-burn romance between Alora and Garrik is structured as a dance of masks and revelations, with each character peeling back layers of pain to find connection. The story uses foreshadowing through repeated motifs—flowers after fire, the promise of "one more day," and the recurring threat of the High King—to build tension and hope.

Power, agency, and the cost of freedom

Magic as metaphor for selfhood

The plot is driven by the struggle for agency—over one's body, mind, and destiny. Alora's fire magic is both a source of danger and a tool for liberation, mirroring her psychological journey. The bargains made in the market, the deals with Kerimkhar, and the debts owed to the past all serve as plot devices to explore the cost of freedom. The narrative structure is cyclical, with each act of rebellion or healing leading to new challenges and deeper understanding. The use of mind magic, shields, and the interplay of light and darkness are woven throughout, symbolizing the ongoing battle for control and the possibility of redemption.

Analysis

A modern tale of trauma, survival, and hope

What Lies Within Masks & Shadows is a dark, emotionally charged fantasy that uses the conventions of epic romance and high fantasy to explore the realities of trauma, abuse, and recovery. The novel's strength lies in its unflinching portrayal of pain—not as a plot device, but as a lived experience that shapes every aspect of the characters' lives. Alora's journey is both harrowing and inspiring, a testament to the resilience of the human (and fae) spirit. The story refuses easy answers or quick fixes; healing is shown as a slow, nonlinear process, marked by setbacks and small victories. The relationship between Alora and Garrik is a masterclass in slow-burn romance, built on mutual recognition of pain and the courage to be vulnerable. The found family of the Dragons offers a vision of community as both a source of strength and a site of conflict, reflecting the complexities of real-world support systems. Ultimately, the novel's message is one of hope: that even in the darkest of worlds, flowers can grow after fire, and one more day is always worth fighting for.

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What Lies Within Masks & Shadows receives polarized reviews with a 4.01 rating. Fans praise the "shadow daddy" MMC Garrik, slow-burn romance, found family dynamics, and powerful trauma representation. Critics cite excessive length (735 pages), dragging plot, confusing third-person POV, and an annoying FMC who acts immature despite being 300+ years old. Common complaints include heavy ACOTAR influences, underdeveloped world-building, and minimal action until a weak cliffhanger ending. Supporters appreciate the lyrical writing and authentic healing journey, while detractors find repetitive prose and too much therapy-focused content with little plot progression.

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Nicolle May is a debut fantasy "traumance" author living in Alberta, Canada, originally from Pennsylvania. She has ADHD and channels personal experiences into her writing, creating emotionally raw stories centered on healing from trauma. When not writing, she enjoys annoying loved ones with spontaneous songs and TV quotes, watching fantasy films with her cats, working out, sewing, and reading. She's passionate about peach, potato, and peanut butter-chocolate combinations. Nicolle maintains active engagement with readers through her mailing list and reader group, offering teasers and exclusive content.

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