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Dear Heart, You Screwed Me

Dear Heart, You Screwed Me

by Ashlee Rose 2022 440 pages
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Shattered Beginnings, Broken Plans

A life upended by loss

Reese Hernández's world collapses when her fiancé Elijah dies suddenly, shattering their shared dreams of a future together. The pain is raw and consuming, leaving her numb and directionless. Reese's grief is compounded by the abruptness of Elijah's death, the unanswered questions, and the void left in her heart. She struggles to find meaning in the aftermath, haunted by memories and the life they planned but will never have. The trauma of loss becomes the catalyst for her decision to leave England, seeking a new beginning far from the reminders of what she's lost. Reese's journey begins not with hope, but with the desperate need to escape the ruins of her old life.

Across the Atlantic, Alone

A leap into the unknown

Reese, still reeling from grief, moves to New York for a job in public relations. The city's energy is both intimidating and invigorating, offering her a chance to reinvent herself. She leaves behind her supportive but worried parents, carrying only memories and a battered diary. The transition is daunting—new job, new culture, and the ache of loneliness. Reese's vulnerability is palpable as she navigates unfamiliar streets and faces the reality of starting over without Elijah. Yet, beneath her fear, there's a flicker of determination: to survive, to heal, and perhaps, to find herself again in the city that never sleeps.

New York, New Wounds

Loneliness and tentative hope

Reese's first days in New York are a blur of jet lag, anxiety, and self-doubt. She meets Connie, a vivacious hotel worker who quickly becomes her first friend in the city. Connie's warmth and humor offer Reese a lifeline, pulling her out of isolation. Reese's diary becomes her confidant, a place to pour out her pain and confusion. The city's relentless pace forces her to confront her grief in new ways, but also exposes her to moments of unexpected beauty and connection. Reese begins to sense that healing might be possible, even if she's not ready to believe it yet.

Friendship, Flirtation, First Mistakes

New bonds and risky choices

Connie introduces Reese to New York nightlife, leading to a night of drinking, laughter, and flirtation with two Wall Street men, Colt and Kieran. Reese, still emotionally raw, seeks comfort in a one-night stand with Colt—a decision that leaves her feeling emptier and more guilty than before. The encounter is awkward and unsatisfying, deepening her sense of alienation. Yet, the night also brings a mysterious encounter with a man known only as "K," who buys her champagne and leaves a note. The city's possibilities and dangers become entwined, as Reese realizes that moving on is more complicated than she imagined.

One-Night Stand, Deeper Guilt

Regret and self-recrimination

The aftermath of Reese's night with Colt is filled with shame and self-loathing. She grapples with the guilt of betraying Elijah's memory, questioning whether she'll ever be ready to love again. The city's anonymity amplifies her sense of being lost, but also offers her the freedom to make mistakes. Reese's diary becomes a confessional, a place to process her conflicting emotions. The encounter with "K" lingers in her mind, a tantalizing reminder that desire and connection are still possible, even if she's not sure she deserves them.

Champagne Encounters, Mysterious K

A spark in the darkness

Reese's path crosses again with the enigmatic "K," revealed to be Killian Hayes, a powerful investor and the father of her new friend Connie. Their chemistry is immediate and electric, but complicated by secrets and boundaries. Killian is older, wealthy, and exudes a dangerous allure. Reese is drawn to him despite her better judgment, sensing both comfort and risk in his presence. Their flirtation is charged with unspoken longing, setting the stage for a relationship that will challenge both of their assumptions about love, loyalty, and self-worth.

Grief, Growth, and Glitter

Healing through friendship and ambition

As Reese settles into her job at Lordes PR, she finds purpose in her work and support in her friendship with Connie. The city's glamour and chaos become a backdrop for her gradual healing. Reese's competence and determination catch the attention of her boss, Adele, and Killian, who is revealed to be a major investor in the company. The boundaries between personal and professional begin to blur, as Reese's ambition is tested by office politics and her growing attraction to Killian. Through it all, Connie remains her anchor, even as secrets threaten to unravel their bond.

Starting Over, Sinking In

Professional challenges and personal risks

Reese's role at Lordes PR becomes increasingly demanding, with Adele proving to be a manipulative and difficult boss. Killian's presence in the office adds tension and temptation, as their flirtation intensifies. Adele's warnings about workplace relationships only fuel the forbidden allure between Reese and Killian. Meanwhile, Reese's success in landing a high-profile client earns her both praise and resentment. The pressure mounts, and Reese is forced to confront her own desires, ambitions, and the ethical lines she's willing to cross in pursuit of happiness and recognition.

The Investor's Eyes

Attraction turns to obsession

Killian's interest in Reese becomes more overt, and their interactions grow increasingly charged. A drunken night leads to an impulsive, accidental marriage in Las Vegas—an event neither fully remembers but both must now navigate. The revelation of their marriage threatens Reese's job and reputation, as well as her friendship with Connie. The accidental union forces Reese and Killian to confront their feelings for each other, as well as the consequences of their actions. The stakes are raised, and the line between passion and disaster becomes dangerously thin.

Rules, Risks, and Rivalries

Secrets, power plays, and forbidden love

Adele's jealousy and manipulation intensify as she senses the connection between Reese and Killian. Company policies and personal loyalties collide, putting Reese's career and relationships at risk. Connie's growing suspicions add another layer of tension, as Reese struggles to keep her secrets hidden. The accidental marriage becomes a battleground for control, desire, and vulnerability. Reese and Killian's attempts to annul their marriage are complicated by their undeniable chemistry and the emotional wounds they both carry. The risk of exposure looms, threatening to destroy everything Reese has built in New York.

Accidental Marriage, Unintended Consequences

From farce to feelings

The annulment process drags on, forcing Reese and Killian into a reluctant partnership. Their living arrangements become increasingly intimate, blurring the lines between convenience and commitment. As they navigate the legal and emotional fallout of their marriage, Reese begins to see Killian's vulnerabilities and scars. Their physical connection deepens, but so do the complications—especially as Connie remains unaware of the truth. The accidental marriage becomes a crucible, forging a bond that is both passionate and precarious.

Secrets, Annulments, and Ambition

Truths revealed, futures uncertain

The pressure of secrecy becomes unbearable as Connie discovers the truth about Reese and Killian's relationship. The revelation shatters their friendship and forces Reese to confront the consequences of her choices. Meanwhile, Adele's machinations threaten Reese's career, leading to her resignation from Lordes PR. Killian's attempts to protect Reese and salvage their relationship are complicated by his own secrets and the unresolved pain of his past. The annulment, once a symbol of freedom, now represents a loss that neither Reese nor Killian is sure they want.

Tension, Temptation, and Truths

Desire and devastation

Reese and Killian's relationship oscillates between passion and pain, as they struggle to reconcile their feelings with the realities of their situation. Connie's anger and sense of betrayal create a rift that seems impossible to bridge. Reese's loneliness and longing are compounded by the loss of her job and the uncertainty of her future. Killian's efforts to win her back are met with resistance, as Reese grapples with her own fears and insecurities. The tension between them is palpable, a constant reminder of what they stand to lose.

Revelations at Thanksgiving

Family secrets and shifting loyalties

Thanksgiving brings unexpected revelations, as Reese discovers that Killian is not only Connie's father but also the owner of her apartment building and a key figure in her professional life. The tangled web of relationships becomes even more complex, as Connie learns the truth about her parentage and Killian's past with Adele. The holiday, meant to be a time of gratitude and togetherness, becomes a crucible for truth, forgiveness, and the possibility of new beginnings. The bonds of family and friendship are tested, and the path forward is uncertain.

Forbidden, Unraveling, Unstoppable

Love, loss, and letting go

Reese and Killian's relationship reaches a breaking point, as the weight of secrets, guilt, and external pressures becomes too much to bear. Their attempts to move on are thwarted by their enduring connection and the realization that their love, however flawed, is real. Connie's journey of self-discovery and rebellion mirrors Reese's own struggles, as both women confront the pain of betrayal and the challenge of forgiveness. The story hurtles toward a climax of heartbreak, revelation, and the possibility of redemption.

Annulment Approaches, Hearts Resist

Endings and new beginnings

The annulment finally arrives, symbolizing the end of Reese and Killian's accidental marriage and the beginning of a new chapter. Both are forced to confront what they truly want, and whether they can find happiness apart. Reese's decision to pursue single motherhood becomes a declaration of independence and hope. Killian's absence at the annulment is a final wound, but also a catalyst for self-reflection and growth. The pain of letting go is tempered by the promise of new life and the possibility of healing.

Connie's Discovery, Friendship Fractures

Betrayal and the cost of secrets

Connie's discovery of Reese's pregnancy and her relationship with Killian shatters their friendship and forces all three to confront the consequences of their actions. The fallout is messy and painful, as trust is broken and loyalties are tested. Connie's anger and sense of betrayal drive her to distance herself from both Reese and Killian, seeking solace in rebellion and escape. The fractures in their relationships become a mirror for the wounds each carries, and the work required to heal them.

Letters, Loss, and Letting Go

Confessions and crossroads

A heartfelt letter from Killian reveals the depth of his love and regret, prompting Reese to reconsider her decision to leave New York. The letter becomes a turning point, offering both closure and the possibility of reconciliation. Reese's journey through grief, anger, and forgiveness culminates in a decision to fight for her own happiness and the future she wants for herself and her child. The act of letting go becomes an act of courage, opening the door to new possibilities.

Tarot, Fate, and Forgiveness

Signs, spirits, and second chances

A chance encounter with a tarot reader and a message from Elijah's spirit offer Reese comfort and guidance. The reading affirms that her journey through pain and loss has prepared her for a new chapter, and that love and happiness are still possible. The symbolism of rainbows, stars, and the sun becomes a motif for hope and transformation. Reese's willingness to forgive herself and others becomes the key to unlocking her future.

Full Circle, New Beginnings

Healing, hope, and happily ever after

Reese and Killian reconcile, choosing to build a life together for themselves and their daughter. The birth of their child, Celeste, becomes a symbol of renewal and the triumph of love over adversity. Connie's journey toward forgiveness and self-acceptance mirrors Reese's own, as both women learn to embrace the messiness of life and the power of second chances. The story ends with a sense of closure and hope, as Reese, Killian, and Connie look toward the future—wiser, stronger, and ready to love again.

Analysis

"Dear Heart, You Screwed Me" is a contemporary romance that explores the messy, nonlinear path from grief to healing, and the ways in which love can both wound and redeem. At its core, the novel is about second chances—at life, at love, and at self-acceptance. Through Reese's journey, the story examines the enduring impact of loss, the courage required to start over, and the necessity of vulnerability in forging authentic connections. The narrative's use of diary entries, spiritual symbolism, and layered secrets creates a rich emotional tapestry, inviting readers to empathize with characters who are flawed, resilient, and deeply human. The book's lessons are clear: healing is possible, but it requires honesty, forgiveness, and the willingness to embrace uncertainty. Love, in all its forms—romantic, familial, platonic—is both a risk and a reward, and true happiness comes not from avoiding pain, but from facing it with courage and hope. In a world where plans are shattered and hearts are broken, the story insists that new beginnings are always within reach, and that even the most unexpected detours can lead us home.

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3.55 out of 5
Average of 5k+ ratings from Goodreads and Amazon.

Dear Heart, You Screwed Me receives mixed reviews, averaging 3.55/5. Positive readers praise its emotional depth, steamy spice, and interconnected plot twists, particularly the heart transplant revelation. Critics highlight poor editing with grammar mistakes, underdeveloped character relationships, an unrealistic plot, and lack of meaningful conflict resolution. Many feel the hero, Killian, escapes consequences too easily, with sex replacing genuine communication. The insta-friendship between Reese and Connie feels forced to several readers, though the grief portrayal resonates strongly with others.

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Characters

Reese Hernández

Resilient, grieving, and searching

Reese is the emotional heart of the story—a young woman devastated by the sudden loss of her fiancé, Elijah. Her journey is one of survival, healing, and self-discovery. Reese's vulnerability is matched by her determination to rebuild her life, even as she battles guilt, loneliness, and the fear of loving again. Her relationships—with her parents, with Connie, and ultimately with Killian—are marked by honesty, empathy, and a deep longing for connection. Reese's diary entries reveal her inner turmoil and growth, as she learns to forgive herself and embrace the possibility of happiness. Her evolution from brokenhearted survivor to empowered mother and partner is the novel's central arc.

Killian Hayes

Powerful, haunted, and passionate

Killian is a complex figure—wealthy, older, and exuding both confidence and vulnerability. As an investor and Connie's father, he occupies a position of authority and danger in Reese's world. Killian's attraction to Reese is immediate and intense, but complicated by secrets, guilt, and the scars of his own past (including a heart transplant and a tangled history with Adele). His possessiveness and need for control are balanced by moments of tenderness and self-doubt. Killian's journey is one of learning to let go, to trust, and to love without reservation. His relationship with Reese forces him to confront his own fears and limitations, ultimately choosing vulnerability over power.

Connie

Loyal, lively, and wounded

Connie is Reese's first friend in New York and the daughter of Killian. Her warmth, humor, and openness provide Reese with much-needed support and companionship. Connie's own journey is marked by the discovery of painful family secrets, including the truth about her parentage and her father's relationship with Reese. Her sense of betrayal and anger lead her to rebellion and self-exploration, but also to forgiveness and growth. Connie's arc mirrors Reese's, as both women learn to navigate the complexities of love, loyalty, and self-acceptance.

Adele

Ambitious, manipulative, and insecure

Adele is Reese's boss at Lordes PR and a former lover of Killian. Her professional success is undermined by her jealousy and need for control. Adele's actions—ranging from workplace sabotage to personal vendettas—create much of the external conflict in the story. Her inability to let go of the past and her resentment toward Reese and Killian ultimately lead to her downfall. Adele serves as both antagonist and cautionary figure, embodying the dangers of unchecked ambition and unresolved pain.

Elijah

Absent, beloved, and guiding

Elijah's presence is felt throughout the novel, both as a memory and as a spiritual guide. His sudden death is the catalyst for Reese's journey, and his influence lingers in her thoughts, dreams, and diary entries. Elijah represents lost innocence, unfulfilled dreams, and the enduring power of love. His spirit, invoked through tarot and moments of reflection, offers Reese comfort and permission to move forward. Elijah's legacy is one of hope, forgiveness, and the belief that love transcends loss.

Reese's Parents (Liz and Mateo)

Supportive, loving, and grounding

Reese's parents provide a touchstone of stability and unconditional love. Their concern for her well-being, their encouragement, and their own cross-cultural relationship offer Reese a model of resilience and hope. Their presence in New York, though brief, underscores the importance of family and the enduring bonds that sustain us through hardship.

Harlen Laufer

Charismatic, successful, and symbolic

Harlen is a high-profile client Reese lands at Lordes PR, representing both professional achievement and the allure of celebrity. His interactions with Reese highlight her competence and ambition, as well as the challenges of navigating power dynamics in the workplace. Harlen's storyline serves as a subplot about self-worth, negotiation, and the importance of authenticity in both business and personal relationships.

Julianne

Mentor, friend, and confidante

Julianne is Reese's HR contact and a steady presence throughout her professional journey. Her support, advice, and camaraderie help Reese navigate the treacherous waters of office politics and personal upheaval. Julianne embodies the value of female friendship and solidarity in a competitive world.

Lara and Katie

Nurturing, honest, and complex

Connie's mothers, Lara and Katie, represent alternative models of family and parenthood. Their own secrets and struggles mirror those of the main characters, highlighting the ways in which love, truth, and forgiveness are essential to healing and growth. Their acceptance of Reese and their support during moments of crisis underscore the novel's themes of chosen family and unconditional love.

Celeste Iris Hayes

Symbol of hope and renewal

The daughter of Reese and Killian, Celeste is the embodiment of second chances and the possibility of happiness after loss. Her birth marks the culmination of Reese's journey from grief to joy, and her presence unites the fractured family in a new beginning. Celeste's name, meaning "miracle" and "rainbow," encapsulates the novel's message of healing, transformation, and the enduring power of love.

Plot Devices

Diary Entries and First-Person Reflection

Intimate access to inner worlds

The novel's use of Reese's diary as a narrative device provides readers with direct access to her thoughts, feelings, and evolution. This confessional style deepens the emotional resonance of the story, allowing for vulnerability, honesty, and self-examination. The diary entries serve as both plot advancement and character development, marking key turning points and moments of insight.

Accidental Marriage and Forced Proximity

Catalyst for conflict and intimacy

The accidental marriage between Reese and Killian is a classic romance trope, used here to force the characters into close quarters and confront their feelings. The legal and emotional complications of their union drive much of the plot, creating opportunities for both comedy and drama. The device also raises questions about fate, choice, and the unpredictability of love.

Secrets, Revelations, and Family Ties

Tension through hidden truths

The novel is structured around a series of secrets—about parentage, past relationships, and personal histories—that are gradually revealed. These secrets create suspense, drive character decisions, and test the bonds of friendship and family. The revelations about Connie's parentage and Killian's past with Adele serve as climactic moments, reshaping relationships and forcing characters to reevaluate their loyalties.

Symbolism: Rainbows, Tarot, and Spiritual Guidance

Hope and transformation through imagery

The recurring motifs of rainbows, tarot cards, and spiritual messages from Elijah infuse the story with a sense of destiny and possibility. These symbols offer comfort, guidance, and affirmation to Reese as she navigates grief and uncertainty. The use of tarot and spiritual encounters bridges the gap between past and present, loss and renewal.

Dual Timelines and Flashbacks

Context and emotional layering

The narrative weaves together present-day events with flashbacks to Reese's life with Elijah, her move to New York, and key moments in her relationship with Killian. This structure allows for a nuanced exploration of grief, memory, and the process of healing. The interplay between past and present underscores the theme that moving forward requires both remembrance and release.

Foreshadowing and Circular Structure

Hints of fate and closure

The novel employs foreshadowing through dreams, diary entries, and symbolic encounters, suggesting that Reese's journey is both unpredictable and guided by unseen forces. The story's circular structure—beginning and ending with moments of loss and renewal—reinforces the idea that healing is a process, and that every ending contains the seeds of a new beginning.

About the Author

Ashlee Rose is a UK-based romance author who began writing in 2018, publishing her debut novel Something New shortly after. Balancing life as a stay-at-home mother to three children, a wife, and owner of a cockapoo, she channels her passion for steamy romance and swoony alpha heroes into her writing. A lifelong romance reader, Rose initially intended to complete only her Entwined In You series before retiring from writing, but her creative drive led her to continue producing numerous romance novels. She maintains an active presence across social media platforms.

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